Emptiness can sometimes be a bad thing: Feeling empty when you're around a loved one, feeling empty when you know you should be feeling something special, feeling empty when everyone around you is feeling so much more.

But sometimes feeling empty might actually be a good thing.

I'm feeling empty because for the first time in a very long time, I am empty of poetic verses and curses. When I was growing up, especially in my teenage years, Poetry was my Cross, my Saviour, my Release, my Christ. It helped me deal with a lot of the pain, darkness, anger, and sorrow that filled up so much of me back then. As the years progressed, my writing skill got better, and I accomplished one of my goals in life: I published a book of poetry.

But now, in this new age, the words have left me. Am I sad that I am now empty of poetry? No, I am not. Because if I no longer feel the need to write anymore, than that must mean I'm actually doing something right with my life. If I no longer feel the need to work out negative emotions by bleeding my heart and soul onto paper, then guess what? It's not that I can't write anymore, it's because a lot of those nasty laughing hungry demons have left me.

Almost three years ago I got married to the love of my life. That day, a certain darkness in me died. And slowly, that darkness has been leaving me. Now, I'm not saying I am completely cured of all depression and darkness, but I have a much better understanding of it and how to battle it.

For once in my life, I can say that I am free. I am no longer a slave to my own emotions and dark thoughts. The Darkness does not control me anymore, for I now control it.

So, I guess what I'm saying here is that I will probably be leaving deviantART. I however, will not be deleting any of my poetry or artwork. They are tombstones that I wish the world to see. Just dont expect me to post anything new anytime soon. And, as I have been for months now, dont expect me to check this site for any new messages or comments.

To all my friends, I thank you for your love and support. To all the haters, I thank you for all the inspiration to do better.

peace, love, and pancakes,

Dustin
dedhedpoet